"You Send Me"
Have you ever heard of that song, You Send Me? Well, I think it's beautiful and one of Sam Cook's greatest songs. I was thinking, you know love is corny, and I hope that I experience that corniness for a lifetime. I'm really praying for it to be so. i suppose before one meets the right one, sometimes one has to experience some goodbyes. Although the tragic reality for some is that the ideal individual unfortunately passes them by, for whatever reason, I have faith that won't be my case. For it is so, that the reality of 1) unrequited love, 2) love never consummated due to ideology, beliefs etc. and 3) timing, are tragic love affairs that do occur. And that dreaming about someone else when in the company of another is a reality for some. I also know that different types of love are a fact and sometimes the losses above are overcome by a different kind of love. I was on the bus this evening speaking with Thien, our tour guide for the day. After a long day of visiting the Cao Dai Temple, north west of Saigon and then the Cu Chi Tunnels and after our different conversations about Viet Nam's war, the similarities between Viet Nam and El Salvador, capitalism, communism, corruption, freedom of speech, and finally his stay at a detention camp in a Hong Kong Refugee camp, we spoke about his little boy Juan-- how much he adores him. We spoke of his falling in love with his wife, how it wasn't 100% as it was with his first girlfriend of 6 years who he still thinks about and dreams about to this day. And how religion prevented their marriage. Nevertheless, he loves his wife, and that's just life I suppose: life is beautiful, but also gracefully unfair.
He is happy despite his loss. And when I heard that I was quite saddened by it and thought how unfair it is to live without the one he truly loved 100%. But now, I do believe one is blessed regardless. He feels blessed and so happy with his child, that was his blessing, that was his gain: her loss was his gain, in a kind of twisted sacrificial way because destiny got in the way. And so, I now sit here thinking, is that what happiness is too? A loss that eventually becomes a gain? A loss that is masked by the love of another in whatever shape and/or form? A love of child, as was the case for Thien?! But I don't know about his process. But I know that saying goodbye is difficult, especially when the beginning and duration of a relationship was just what you wanted. But destiny does get in the way. Timing is a factor and love does not conquer all. God knows best and in one way or the other we do find love, a type of love that overshadows the past, although it doesn't vanish it.
All I know right now is that I believe in what Thien said, "Dream Big" whether it is about life or love, I will dream big. I will dream of a better world, and I will dream of the corniest love possible. God is good and whatever that type of love is, I will be happy. And one more thing I know, when you see something and you can't stop thinking about, just do it. Get it. Go for it. Or else you'll always think about it, wonder about it and question whether it was the right decision or not to have let it or him/her pass you by. I am at peace and have faith we will accomplish a better humanity one day (we are in the works as we speak :) ) and I will fall deeply head over heels in the arms of someone who will adore me unconditionally.
You will too.
P.S. A Viet Nam blog coming soon. :)
He is happy despite his loss. And when I heard that I was quite saddened by it and thought how unfair it is to live without the one he truly loved 100%. But now, I do believe one is blessed regardless. He feels blessed and so happy with his child, that was his blessing, that was his gain: her loss was his gain, in a kind of twisted sacrificial way because destiny got in the way. And so, I now sit here thinking, is that what happiness is too? A loss that eventually becomes a gain? A loss that is masked by the love of another in whatever shape and/or form? A love of child, as was the case for Thien?! But I don't know about his process. But I know that saying goodbye is difficult, especially when the beginning and duration of a relationship was just what you wanted. But destiny does get in the way. Timing is a factor and love does not conquer all. God knows best and in one way or the other we do find love, a type of love that overshadows the past, although it doesn't vanish it.
All I know right now is that I believe in what Thien said, "Dream Big" whether it is about life or love, I will dream big. I will dream of a better world, and I will dream of the corniest love possible. God is good and whatever that type of love is, I will be happy. And one more thing I know, when you see something and you can't stop thinking about, just do it. Get it. Go for it. Or else you'll always think about it, wonder about it and question whether it was the right decision or not to have let it or him/her pass you by. I am at peace and have faith we will accomplish a better humanity one day (we are in the works as we speak :) ) and I will fall deeply head over heels in the arms of someone who will adore me unconditionally.
You will too.
P.S. A Viet Nam blog coming soon. :)
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