My Ode to Yesterday and 2day

I did not live to see fall or winter of 2018

In the U.S of A. 

My spirit wandered instead 

Into the bliss of the unknown

For my mind had grown tired, 

My spirit though not broken, felt fired. 

My heart was rewired to set foot real inspired.

I wanted a break, I wanted to emancipate.

I wanted to be free from Ms. Statue of Liberty.

I wanted to see how much more I could grow 

In the journey of the unknown

What new information I would learn about me

But most importantly, what new life would move me.

And now, 1 year later

I say hi to fall 2019.

I’ve returned to this life of many unknowns but, different unknowns. 

My mind is constantly wondering still,

But, grounded so ever more.

My spirit is rejoiced 

For I do not seek to be happy but, to be joy-full. 

There is a difference.

My heart, it betrays me 

But the Word, that saves me.  

I step to the challenge, armor of salvation locked.

Oh! The things we can accomplish when we keep our dreams alive.

To those of you who have asked me, “How could you do that? Just leave like that for 6 months?” “How did you not feel anxious about not knowing what would happen when you came back?” 

To those of you who said, “I could never do that. I feel so much anxiety just thinking about it.”

To those of you who also said, “You inspire me.” “Because of you I knew I could also travel by myself.”

TO ALL OF YOU, I SAY TO YOU:

You can! You can just leave, you can achieve peace of mind and live out your dream, whatever that dream is for YOU. Everyone beats to their own beat. 

My vision, I offered it up to God. I made plans and, He gracefully aligned my steps. I worked towards what I aspired to do; I walked confidently in my decision with indomitable courage. I did not look back, I embraced my “Will Smith Moment” because that was the decision I made. 

Whatever your vision is, your dream is, your heart’s desire is, which adds to your quality of life… it will come to pass, in Jesus' name, it will. But, it is up to you to not stand idle and to act steadfastly in pursuit of it as well.  

Today, a year later, I’m still finding stability in certain areas of my life. And I’ve come to understand that God cares not only about the desires of my heart but also, the quality of my life. My heart’s desire and quality of life aligned and I was blessed to see it through. And sometimes, in periods of transition such as these, it is common to feel anxious but, I am trusting in God completely and trusting in His faithful provision and sovereignty. I look back and think about this time last year and I smile, a part of me wishes I could be out there traveling again and another one is content to be standing where I am today  :). 

Thank you to everyone whose support, prayers, kindness and ❤️ Helped make my travels and my transition back smooth and sweet. God bless you, much love to you all 😊‼️

❤️ Jenny